Hello all you readers, you long-time fans, you complete strangers. Hello friends, frenemies, casual acquaintances, people who are still trying to figure out whether they like me or not.
I’ve tried being aloof.
I’ve tried just writing and hoping you’d come and read. I built it. Some people came, but not enough to pay for the popcorn, if you know what I’m saying.
I’ve tried to be entertaining. I’ve tried to be friendly. I’ve been bluntly honest, sometimes to the point of cruelty.
I’ve been human, and I suppose that’s all I can be.
For the past two years, I’ve BEEN Helena. I mean, I’ve been writing as Helena, I’ve been living my online life as Helena. If I’d been living in my meatspace life the way I have in my online life, I’d be eligible for gender reassignment (no offense to anyone going through gender reassignment).
It’s been exhausting, and I am not in the mood to talk about all that right now, just to say that Helena is not me. Or rather, she’s not all that I am. The lines are blurry, sure, but she’s served her purpose and now it’s time for me to reclaim my life and let Helena become what she truly is — a character, a name.
It will be transitional, of course. I’m just spread so thin — multiple Facebook pages, multiple websites, I can’t keep up anymore. So I’m embracing it all and rolling it all together.
You’re going to see some changes, and I’m going to share a ton of stuff with you, bit by bit. It’s going to take a while, so don’t think you’re going to come back tomorrow and everything will be different.
I’ve been challenged to Be Real.
So, here we go.